Last fall, right before my open house I shared a post with you guys about how each year I do something more to prepare for the holiday season. Each year I try to be better prepared, try to make it easier on Scotty, on my family, on me, on my emotions, on my body. You know the saying, “work smarter not harder”.
Except in fact by trying to work smarter, I am expecting more of myself. I began expecting this tip top shape, perfection that is unattainable. I am so disappointed when it still ends up being hard.
This year the night before the holiday open house, after setting it all up, I told Scotty, “I am still so tired. I did all I could think of to prepare in advance and I still hurt all over and it still took so long .”
Dumbfounded, he looks at me and said. “You ever think that maybe it’s just plain hard Bethany?!? That maybe this is as easy as it’s going to get. Maybe you did all you could and it turns out it is just a lot of work. Look around you and see what you’ve accomplished.”
Me- “Ok. Alright then. I mean fine. Ok yeah, I get that. UGH, you’re right.”
Scotty – “Bethany. You are doing enough.”
You ever find yourself here? Disappointed by how hard it still is. After all this work, all this learning, all these lessons.
What am I supposed to do then? Like just let it be hard? Sit down?
FYI -We’re not still just talking about setting up Christmas decor at the shop. LOL.
What are we supposed to do when we’ve exhausted our options? Pray for a rescue from the hard times? Pray to have those hard times taken away?
Pray remove me from this. Protect me from this. I didn’t expect that and I don’t know what to do with it. Take it away.
Have I prayed all these prayers? You betcha baby.
Do I believe that God is our rescuer? HE IS OUR GREATEST RESCUER! He is OUR SALVATION.
Is God also our provider? Our Jehovah Jireh? Does He have a surefire plan, knowing what we need and when we’ll need it? Is he all knowing, loving, and supreme?
Yes, yes, yes, and yes.
So what happens when we begin to trust God as our PROVIDER when we are in the heat of hard times, and not only as our RESCUER?
I’ll tell you what happens. A shift in our perspective. An opportunity to grow. A pivot.[Read more…]